I wanted to give up many times because my body was so weak, but my
spirit refused to do so. It wanted me to stay in the ring and fight on
more battle. I spent most of my time during the day sitting on a dirt
floor fanning flies off my face; and at night, I shooed away the
mosquitoes. I was so alone. There were times when I wondered whether
I had been brought to this earth by a spirit who had then abandoned
me.
Every day I cried for my mothers help. I heard that I had a sister
and a brother in the City with Maman. I wanted to be close to my
family. Perhaps then I could be touched, even held. Psychologists
tell us that children who are not cuddled, held, and touched have a
tendency to shrink and die early. I desperately needed some type of
affection.
The Cynical Predictions Of The Lay Fortune Tellers
Yes, I suffered the blows of poverty; and I endured the pain of
sickness and lonelinessbut the highest mountain I had to climb was
dealing with the teasing and ridiculing of the people in the village.
They made fun of my swollen tummy and my skeletal body. Some
villagers belittled me.
They called me Kokobay and Souyan. Kokobay is an actual Creole word,
which means crippled. I found out that there was an actual person name
Souyan. He was crippled with a flat behind. He, too, had to put up
with teasing and name-calling.
When the strong tropical wind blew in the village, I ran and braced
my feeble body against trees in order to avoid being blown away. My
condition had deteriorated so much that some people predicted I
would not survive to adulthood. They even told me so, but God proved
them wrong. I made it. Do you remember the cigarette commercial for
Virginia Slims? Thats the way I feel: I have come a long way baby!
What I went through is only my experience. While my family was
living on the edge, there were those living a good life. Some were
driving expensive cars, living in hilltop mansions, and traveling
the world. These people cant identify with my story, but they are
not the majority.
What about you? How long have you traveled to get where you are today?
Where did you start in life? Some people, particularly Haitians,
often ask if Im embarrassed to share so much of my early life with
strangers. Why should I be embarrassed? It doesnt matter where you
start; what matters is where you finish. Society does not evaluate
me based on my past.
A Fortune 500 company never looks at my past before hiring me to
speak to their employees. Instead, they hire me because of what I
have accomplished. It is who I am today that earns me respect and
admiration.
Regardless of where we startwhether its the ghetto or a tiny village i
Haitiwith a strong vision, solid goals, and a sense of direction, we
can have a great finish. Where we come from is not as relevant as
where we are going. When I stand on a platform staring at three
thousand souls waiting for me to boost their batteries, to touch
their soulsthey are interested in one thing: what I can offer them in
that moment!